Without realizing, it had been almost two years where I choosed my nursing as my career pathway in future. Time passed, I saw, I learnt a lot of things. I became more empathy on people rather than just sympathy. My care for everyone is oversensitive at times till I guess it annoys people around me. I’m so sensitive towards a small little change and reacted as if it was end of the world.
Suddenly, these few days I realized that being a nurse is not only helping people. I’m beginning to see things the other way round. Last time, I used to think that why can’t we save everyone? Why can’t the doctors and nurses give the best treatment to everyone? Life is very important to everyone. But as time goes on, I don’t see the necessity of doing this if the patient refuses to continue on their life. What’s the point of continue to save them when they don’t the quality of life anymore? Why am I there just to prolong the sufferings of a young patient?
I saw one teenage boy who met with an accident last year and he had been in the hospital since September 2007. He had his anus perforated and he had to use a colostomy bag for the rest of his life. What worsen his condition was during the surgery opening a stoma, he collapsed for a few minutes and his brain was damaged due to insufficient oxygen. Therefore, now he is totally unable to perform anything for himself, unable to talk but just open his eyes each day. He can’t even eat orally but his mouth was open all the while creating more infection chances. Contractures were formed on all his limbs. He will never recover anymore. Why must the doctors save him for such a life? There’s no quality of life in him at all. All he have to do is just wait for his day to come. The family members…how are they going to face all these challenges?...
What is the meaning of us living in this world?
To be who we are or to be who the society want us to be?
What is quality of life means to everyone?... just eating, having enough pleasure and excitement in life?
For some people, when they have terminal illness, we as nurses always encourage them to be strong, be positive and so on to carry on their life. Yes, very true if you’re stronger inside, the will of living is there and you would live longer. But how long they going to SUFFER in themselves while portraying a happy face?
Psychologically…I’m so lost in this…I want everyone to recover but there’s impossible thing to do….
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